Blue Roses Lyrics

How you go from having it all to desperation

How you go from having control to automation

How you go from simple and easy to complications

How you go from real as it gets to animation

I'm starting to think that my homies feel obligations

To post my new songs when they drop cuz of our relations

They don't ever hit me to check on my concentration

To see if i'm staying focused and hear the new shit i'm making

Yea, this shit could really get discouraging

Even if i stop now the legacy is permanent

Glamour and the fame really isn't the determinant

If you seen the notes app, you'd think I was a journalist

All my new relationships are starting with a follow

And they got the puddle but they end up being shallow

You just send emojis baby this is not a convo

I need something deeper like the pizza in Chicago

Look around and people my age are startin' families

And i'm not even thinkin bout' making Sandi a Granny

Shit I think i'm closer to moving out to Miami

Shit i think i'm closer to getting myself a grammy

Sometimes i'm at peace and other times i'm at war

Sometimes I want less and other times I need more

And the grass stays green where you water it

But it's hard not to check the neighbors lawn and shit

Self-centered that's what she saying I am

Can't even help it they treating me like the man

They brought this on me this wasn't even the plan

Even if i was Ditto I wouldn't change who I am

She think my DM's is over flowing with freaks

It's just producer that wanna send me some beats

A couple people that's tryna sell me a dream

And a few promotion pages that think i'm dumb and naive

Yea, they say you are the company that you keep

Even though she keep on coming for company that ain't me

I think I forgot the difference between my wants and my needs

Watching you get undressed it's like Deja vu

Watching a lot of people I know say I do

I just lost somebody I thought I could say that to

Guess i'm back to Rottweiler til' the day I do

How can i burn a bridge when there's so much water under it

How can I have your back when all you doin' is frontin'

The shit you dropping is gross its getting harder to stomach it

Listening to your shit is like putting myself through punishment

I always say what I mean

Had to learn the hard way sometimes it ain't what it seems

Questioning myself when everybody round me believes

Fighting off anxiety became a daily routine, yea

Dear you know who you are, I miss you

You handed me a broken heart and I wanted to fix you

When the faults were yours never held that shit against you

I was down to work through all the pallets of them tissues

Yea, they pushing me to the breaking point

Not even patience or meditation could save the boy

But staying anxious that's not how i'm tryna live

They say it's never too late but it always feels like it is