Backseat Lyrics

When I'm sitting in the back seat

I be staring at the window

Looking for a signal

Wishing life was simple

Cuz no one understand me

I be living in my head

Feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryna get head

Anxiety has me

Feeling like i don't be long

So I sit and write these songs

There's nobody i can call

This all has me feeling

I can't even lie and pretend

I feel like I'm on the edge, I want my torment to end

I locked all issues out but they just keep barging in

I fell so many fucking times, I can't get up again

Devil keeps playing games, sick of letting him win

I wake up everyday battling the pain I'm against

I feel alone, this is how my whole life has been

They see me as a percentage, or a flex to they friends

It fucked up, fuck love, cuz I don't wanna hear about it

I don't even drink but get a bottle ima down it

Even in an empty room, I'm feeling like it's hella crowded

Cuz my demons steady creeping in and leaving me surrounded

I just wanna walk away

And I swear I got a lot to say

Maybe I should pray

God find me cuz I'm lost

These are always my thoughts (My thoughts)

When I'm sitting in the back seat

I be staring at the window

Looking for a signal

Wishing life was simple

Cuz no one understand me

I be living in my head

Feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryna get head

Anxiety has me

Feeling like I don't be long

So I sit and write these songs

There's nobody I can call

This all has me feeling so, yeah

Tired of feeling this way

Shit got me fucked up for real

Sometimes I like to go for a ride

And play the music loud just so I can quiet my mind

My thoughts trickle in, the voices keep feeding me lies

I push them aside, I run but they gon' always arrive

I need-a run run, needed someone but i never did

Find love cuz I feel like it don't exist

And that's my ex fault

And it's my fault to

Cuz I shoulda ran

But I took her back again

But it's okay I'll take blame for it

And I know that karmas real and she gon' pay for it

And She promised a better future and I stayed for it

Now my heart is cold, don't want love, cuz there's no place for it

So i'm boutta move on, I'd would rather be alone

Trauma that I carry from a broken home

Got me hit hitting different lows

Tryna stay under control

But my thoughts they just tend to roam (They tend to roam)

When I'm sitting in the back seat

I be staring at the window

Looking for a signal

Wishing life was simple

Cuz no one understand me

I be living in my head

Feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryna get head

Anxiety has me

Feeling like I don't be long

So I sit and write these songs

There's nobody I can call

This all has me feeling so, yeah