Carcass ft. GABRIEL UTAU Lyrics

I'm supposed to be happy

But the artwork painted

On the skin of my hands

Has faded in a way

You would never understand

Stare me down like I deserve it

Looking down like I can't earn it

Everybody's looking down on me

I can feel it

A thousand eyes don't matter

When there aren't approving smiles

And even if there are

I still feel I haven't proven far enough

But I guess that's how it goes

When the voices on the radio don't stop

But I wanna try to do a little bit better

Do a little bit better

But I couldn't prove it then

And I couldn't prove it now

And it's eating me alive

I'm so done

Frustrated

Why do you put everything into a zero-sum?

You wanna fight but I wanna fly

Wanna die before I even try

I fucking know I've gotten far

Took my time to do it right

Perfected my craft

And you know what makes me laugh?

Those countless smiles don't matter

When there's flaws I can't control

But even though there are

How the fuck does that prove I can't be able?

Keep on pushing

Keep on fighting

When my hatred never stops

Keep on making

Keep creating

When this feeling never stops

Why can't they see

The paint before it's washed away?

But I guess that's how it goes

When the voices on the radio don't stop

But I wanna try to do a little bit better

Do a little bit better

But I couldn't prove it then

And I couldn't prove it now

And it's eating me alive

I'm so done

Frustrated

Oh, oh