Darkness Lyrics

They try to make me see that I'm a self-destruct

But I don't want to hear it from the ones I distrust

The money might be evil but it's good enough

Got everybody looking at me now with disgust

I've been holding it all in…somehow

I wish I could end this shit…right now

It makes me too emotional

I just want to let it all go

But I've been drained…flushed into darkness

I've sunken

Spending

My impulse

Buried but I feel so torn when alone

You ever felt so lost

I need a damn map for my life right now

I don't see no positivity in sight right now

And I don't got nobody that's by my side right now

You ever felt so crossed

I been stabbed in the back had to pull the blade out

I don't follow any plans til it's all laid out

Bout to switch it up again never mind the safe route

I been dealing with myself in my head again

Been a struggle just to get up out of bed again

All the memories I want to just forget again

All the things I gotta do to be a better man, you get it man

I remember playing ball on the black top

Then it comes to the fall and I'm mad lost

Fell too hard gotta get back up

And you better trust, when I do that I'm a blast off

But I've been drained…flushed into darkness

I've sunken

Spending

My impulse

Buried but I feel so torn when alone

You ever felt so done

Felt so fed up that you wanna run

Felt like you just can't do another one

Maybe even wishing that you were another one

I am there

Sick of life and pretending that it's been fair

Sick of lying to myself saying friends care

I'm like the avatar, the only one who bends air

Nobody relates, now I'm ripping out my damn hair

Isolation, feeling psycho

No vacation, no time bro

Got patience, but this time no

The gutters getting muddy hope you like the high road

You ever felt so low?

So low like you're caught up in a chokehold

Time to pick it up now and I won't slow down

Make way as I'm paving my own road

But I've been drained…flushed into darkness

I've sunken

Spending

My impulse

Buried but I feel so torn when Alone

Left in the darkness

Left by the ones that were heartless

Now it's got me feeling like garbage

Find myself laying on the carpet

Left in the darkness

Left and it got me feeling heartless

Left and I felt like garbage

But I'mma get back up regardless

Just watch this

I've been holding it all in…somehow

I wish I could end this shit…right now

It makes me too emotional

I just want to let it all go

But I've been drained…flushed into darkness

I've sunken

Spending

My impulse

Buried but I feel so torn when alone