Forgot How to Cry Lyrics

There's an illness in this heart of mine

And I don't know if I'll ever recover

Self-inflicted wounds consume my mind

And every time I try to win the fight again, it's over

So I learn to hold it in

And wait until it dies 'cause

Lord knows I won't let go this time

Now I wonder where the wonder has gone

'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong

As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life

I can't believe I truly am surprised

I think I forgot how to cry

There was loveliness in everything

And every phrase was like a poem

Now my world is full of irony and apathy

Yeah, I fell into this cycle without knowing

And I learned to hold it in

Then wait until it dies 'cause

Lord knows I won't let go this time

Now I wonder where the wonder has gone

'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong

As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life

I can't believe I truly am surprised

I think I forgot how to cry

Is there strength in vulnerability?

Are there tears in masculinity?

Is it my pride that's getting in the way?

I want chills from hearing symphonies

And to see the art in simple things

But I suffocate my feelings while my heart is bleeding out

I just wanna feel, but I've forgotten how

Now I wonder where the wonder has gone

'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong

As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life

I can't believe I truly am surprised

I think I forgot how to cry