Suicide note (loosing myself) Lyrics

Anyone mentally unstable,

anyone going through bipolar, trauma, pain, hurt ,

I know how it feels feeling suicidal

anyone who died out of suicide this song dedicated to you

Through my ups and downs

You always stood by my side

I just woke up one day and you’re gone

What’s time if it can’t last

I would be prepared so fast

if I knew would be gone soo soon I would’ve showed much love

But now you are gone

I turn around I can’t see you anywhere

I close my eyes and all I see is fears

All memories lost I wish you were here

I wish I had someone to listen to but you not near

Ask me who am referring to

I don’t even know

Who else can relate but myself

A lot I’m going through

And I don’t know what to do

I’m lost I’m loosing myself

I’m dead inside

And I want you to know if i hurt you ain’t it my will cuz I can’t really think right

My mind telling me different thing my heart don’t want

A lot of voices in my head which one is from God

Is the right thing sometimes wrong

If giving birth was an option I would not allow to be born

I try my best and i still fall

even when I fall I try to crawl

I still get blocked by a wall

That’s my life on default

is it even my fault

Did I do something I don’t recall

God I don’t wanna be poor

I do sins I’m sorry for

Ask me who am referring to

I don’t even know

Who else can relate but myself

A lot I’m going through

And I don’t know what to do

I’m lost I’m loosing myself

I’m dead inside

And I want you to know if i hurt you ain’t it my will cuz I can’t really think right

I just take comfort to myself

Cuz I ain’t got no one but myself

I know I’m not perfect

And I do some wrongs

But I know it will be fine

It won’t be long

Through my ups and downs

You always stood by my side

I just woke up one day and you’re gone

What’s time if it can’t last

I would’ve prepared so fast

if I knew you would be gone soo soon I would showed much love

But now you are gone

I turn around I can’t see you anywhere

I close my eyes and all I see is fears

All memories lost I wish you were here

I wish I had someone to listen to but you not near