CHRONICALLY CAUTIOUS Lyrics

I gamble big for the smallest pot

I know it's not

Enough to change what's been going on

But it's all I've got

I misjudge and switch up from target to target

And miscalculate what it is that I wanted

Swimming in circles in search of substance

In shallow waters that give me nothing

How can optimists be cynical?

So if I'm honest

I think I'm beginning to question how much i want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

How can I get off this

To keep it simple

I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

Passionate but fickle

The source of my serotonin is only digital

Cause my reality's fading, I guess that's typical

Can't switch back it's mismatched in dopamine

Get whiplash, it hits fast controlling me

Swerving in silence I'm all alone

In traffic I'm trapped in, I can't find home

I'm an optimist who's cynical

And that's miserable

So if I'm honest

I think I'm beginning to question how much I want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

How can I get off this

To keep it simple

I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

Passionate but fickle